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Today's words are Fawn, Juggle and Navigate
I watched as my father would fawn over my siblings
Me? I would navigate around his verbal abuse -
Justifying them, that it was my fault for being ugly in his eyes
Learning to juggle emotions, and laughing outside and dying on the inside
As an adult, I have learned we do not become what we are told we are
Though, it takes many years to realize it was not my fault. I still, am laughing
Wysteria
We are in Mystical Times, at least I am...... Wysteria --- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQWwZQxSwoM
Wysteria - I am glad you can laugh...and write..I hope the laugh comes from inside..just a little..like the words..Jae
ReplyDeleteSounds like you and I had the same upbringing...
ReplyDeleteTakes years to un-learn all of the hurtful things we go through as children at the hands of adults who (maybe) don't even realise how much their words and action hurt us. I'm glad you are wiser now.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that someone who was suppose to love you chose to act this way.At least you rose above this and realized that he was wrong that you are worthy of being fawned over.
ReplyDeleteIt's always something. Keep on truckin'. Hold the mystery close if you can.
ReplyDeleteChildhood scars take years to heal, but they do heal. I hope you find beauty in yourself, because we are all, every single one of us, beautiful. Both inside and out.
ReplyDeleteI like how this writing starts off heavy and sad, but then finishes with a ray of hope. I hope your life mirrors this post in that way.
ReplyDeletewysteria: you are strong and forgiving. it's attest to your sweetness that you didn't take out your
ReplyDeletesadness on your sibling. {{hugs}}
So softly sad. I feel this on many levels. Very well done and I commend your positive attitude. Abuse is abuse...physical, verbal, emotional. So sorry.
ReplyDeletePainful!
ReplyDeleteRejoicing that you have over come the abuse and that you know that it isn't your fault. I applaud you.
Blessings
Thank you all for the comments. I know there are many who have suffered many years too
ReplyDeleteThank you all for the comments. I know there are many who have suffered many years too
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