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Wednesday, May 30, 2012


The meaning of friendship

Today, I don't think people understand that sentence
It's not "who" you know, or, "What" they have
It's what they give from the heart.

People pretend to be your friend for many selfish reasons
They take advantage of what you can GIVE them
I am blessed, I have FIVE, REAL friends
No, they are my sisters and more

Some have more, some have less,
But, we have all of these special things
Love, respect, and a deep, deep friendship, a loving bond

When I say I don't think I could make it through life without them, I mean it
We laugh together, cry together, share our most intimate secrets and TRUST
The more we are together, the more I realize how blessed I am
Life is a struggle, but with all of them, it makes it so much easier

All of our personalities are different,  we know our own faults and strengths
We admit them, and don't have to  apologize for our short comings
Six, strong, caring, loving, honest women, together
A life-long bond that can never be broken.

To my sisters, I love each and everyone of you, and need you more than you will ever know
Thank you for being in my life. If I don't tell you enough, I know that you know I love you all

The Black Rose

He left a black rose on my pillow,nightly
Curtains snapped and lifted with the humid breeze that entered my room
A scent of musk, wafted and hung heavy in the air
A chill ran down my spine, the moonlight gave an eerie aura surrounding my bed

He, had no name, just a presence in my dreams, or so I thought
A kiss that left my lips swollen and ruby red
A touch that was cold, yet filled my being with fire

Demanding my submission, I gave it willingly
Unspeakable acts, that I surrendered to
He was pleased, I begged for mercy and more

Nightly, I waited for his presence
Afraid he would come, but, disappointed if he did not
His mocking laughter at my weakness
Sadistic power made me melt under his weight

Screaming for more, not recognizing my own voice
His coal black eyes burning sins into my soul
I knew I was a prisoner of his power
Not even God could save me


Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Laughing through Life

Please visit : Three Word Wednesday

Today's words are Fawn, Juggle and Navigate

I watched as my father would fawn over my siblings

Me? I would navigate around his verbal abuse -

Justifying them, that it was my fault for being ugly in his eyes

Learning to juggle emotions, and laughing outside and dying on the inside

As an adult, I have learned we do not become what we are told we are

Though, it takes many years to realize it was not my fault. I still, am laughing


Monday, April 9, 2012

Three Word Wed -

Three Word Wednesday- I might be a little late for this one..  "Growl, Hype and Justify"

Three word Wednesday

I know it is Monday and soon the new words will be up.  These words, just seem to fit something I want to write about.

I expected a growl on our first meeting. Instead I was met with a slobbery wet kiss on the cheek and huge paws resting on my shoulders.  Wait! Am I suppose to be afraid?  I heard all the hype, I read all the gory details and the vicious dog laws.

I have owned many dogs, but, there is something different about owning Pit Bulls.  They are a dominant breed.  Proud, fiercely loyal, and rambunctious.  Stubborn as HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes, stubborn as hell.  They are not a breed for everyone.  They require lots of attention and constant commands. BUT, they learn who is boss.  They learn that yes, they too, can be loved.  Despite of the bad reputation these dogs get, my daughter and I have become absolutely in love with them.

I am tired of having to justify my love of the breed.  Defend their natures and remind people, there are no bad dogs, just bad owners.

  This breed does have a jaw with pressure.  And, when they do bite, they don't let go.  However, NOT all Pit Bulls, are BAD, BAD, DOGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I own six dogs.  Two of them are pit bulls.  A male and a female.  They are adorable.  Funny, loving and just plain loads of fun to play with.  They are rescue dogs.  I probably will never own another breed, they have convinced me that they are wonderful pets.

Thousand of pit bulls are put to sleep each day.  There are laws that need to change and if your State or County needs to change their vicious dog law, please sign a petition. 

Please note, the loving dog on the right was put to sleep because we could not find a home for her.
Don't let others tell you horror stories.  Any, and I mean ANY dog can be vicious.  Please support your local rescues.


Wednesday, March 28, 2012

It's been awhile but....Pit Bulls???

I am still ALIVE and doing... well....well... "maintaining my life"

It seems so long that I have made an entry, and though I have visited here, I have lost motivation to write. Some call it writers block, others call it life interference.  For me, I can't find time, can't motivate and feel that if I do start writing it will sound like a bitch session, a pity post or boring as hell.  Whatever..... anyway.....

I want to get connected again.  Miss reading other posts and have decided that I need to read and write again.  Have felt lost in my own daily have to do things.  Tired of that, done with that and want to share with some of you, other things that I have been doing in my SPARE (what the hell is that??) time!

As some of you know from other posts I may have written (not sure that I have written about it or not) that I am involved in Pit Bull Rescue groups.  Fell into this by accident and have learned so much about the breed that I am now a pit bull advocate and absolutely LOVE the breed.  Misconceptions, lies, and rumors about this breed has led to so many loving pets being abandoned, put to sleep, killed, and owners having to surrender them because of laws in their communities.  The surrenders are probably the most heart-wrenching of all.  Loving owners who have had their pets for years, having to give them up, knowing they will be put to sleep because their communities banned the breed, labeled them vicious and if they do keep them have to take out enormous liability insurance that they just can not afford to keep them.

Please, like any other breed, these dogs are what they are because of how they are, raised, loved, cared for.

I own six dogs.  Two labs, a Rottweiler, a Chihuahua  and two American Bull dog, pit bull mix.  Out of the six, the dog that I have to watch the most is a lab. Wow!  Believe it or not a LAB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  He is not mean, but occasionally will snap if another dog comes to close to him and his treat.

My new found love of the Pit bull breed is amazing.  They are amazingly smart, loveable.  Mean? Ugh.. NO!

I foster Pit bull mix dogs because here in our City Kennels, they are put to sleep within 24- 48 hours of surrendering, found, or abandoned.  So... my daughter and I rescue, find them homes and love and put them through many tests.  Cat test, dog test, kid test, aggressive tests.  Guess what? Out of all the fosters, not one has shown signs of any of these traits.

Fostering, is not for everyone.  It is very hard on both us and the dogs.  The dogs, think they have a home and we get attached to them.  But, I keep in mind that I am saving a dog and finding them a furever home!

Please note, the pic is all pit bulls.  Mine, is the middle, the two others are fosters.  This was the very first day they met each other.  Wow.... don't they look mean!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!